Author: Jess Calic

Why losing my job was a turning point

Why losing my job was a turning point

I lost my job during covid. I felt like I failed my family. I felt like I was letting them down.  I have always worked a 9-5 type job.  I didn’t know anything else.

It took me a long time to realize that my job did not define me.  In fact, I had two people at home who needed me more than anything in the entire world.  This is the most important job I will ever have. I could never be replaced at home and to them, I am everything.

With Covid hitting in March 2020, having two small children, and having just recently been told my position was eliminated, I had so many emotions swirling in my head.  I was finally getting to a point in my career where I was starting to feel stable, things seemed to be going well, I enjoyed what I was doing and had been working in the field for almost 10 years (and a few mat leaves in between).  So, when I was told my position was being eliminated, although I understood and knew so many others were in the same situation, I was most definitely sad and felt defeated.  Starting over seemed impossible.

After awhile of feeling down on myself.  Something clicked. I decided that maybe this was a sign.  I could finally do whatever I wanted.  Was I scared? Absolutely. And I am FAR from a risk taker. But I always felt like something was missing (in my professional life), I enjoyed my job but have always wanted to do something else, something that really sparked my passions and something that I could have for me to fulfill my own dreams.  That’s when I decided I would write my book.  I felt like the timing lined up well and it was my time to do something for myself.

Flash forward to today (2 YEARS LATER), I now have my very own published children’s book, that I’m so proud of. It was not easy getting here. Lots of nights where I questioned if I made the right decision to do this. Publishing a book does come with a large financial investment and as someone who has always been a saver and does not like taking financial risks, it was tough seeing the big picture when it came to the financial side of things.  So many days I questioned whether anyone would want to read my book or follow my social media page. And while I may never be a famous author or blogger or make a huge amount of money I’m super proud of where I am today and how far I’ve come.

If you are looking for a sign to go after your dreams or do something you’ve been putting off doing because you’re afraid, take this as your sign and GO FOR IT!  We only live once and whether my book is financially successful or not, I think I would have regretted not trying it. I’m always here to chat if you’re looking for support or advice on moving forward with your idea!

AND… while we’re on the topic of work – I have also just started back to work after being off for almost 2 years…well back to an office job – being at home with my kids was and is the hardest but best job in the world, BIG shout out to all stay-at-home parents.

So many emotions have come with this change…

excited to be back working and doing something for me…

sad that I feel like I’m missing so much time with my kids…

anxious trying to balance everything that needs to get done…

guilty.. so much guilt about feeling like every part of my life is not getting 100%…

I know that not everything and every day will be perfect, but I am trying to soak in as much time with them as I can. It’s also ok to feel excited about getting up and going to work and feel like I’m contributing in a different way for my family.

I guess what I’m trying to say is that, with any change comes different emotions and it’s ok to feel them and just know you are doing your best!!!



My First Story: Why did I write my book?

My First Story: Why did I write my book?

Ahhh here it is, my first blog post EVER.  The one thing I can promise is I’ll try and keep things very real and relatable.  Fear is something that is and has been holding me back from many things, so I’m using my blog and writing as an outlet to help myself, move past my fears. My biggest hope in the process is that I can help, even one person to feel like they are not alone.  As I know, sometimes it can feel lonely and like you’re the only one feeling this way.

So why did I write a children’s book?  I have always enjoyed writing, as a child I would write stories at family gatherings and read them to my family.  I did enjoy reading as a child also, but in all honesty, I have not picked up a book for myself in a very LONG time, because umm well, kids!!! I, however, have read thousands of children’s books over the last few years. Reading for myself, is something I would love to get back into again. If anyone has any must read book recommendations, I’d love to hear them – post them in the comments below!!!

I started writing through my first maternity leave, but I never really thought anything of it. Just an outlet.  However, during my second maternity leave, someone from my hometown, published her own children’s book (check out her page – her book and site is ADORABLE). I had always wanted to publish a book, but never thought it was possible.  Also again, my fear and self-consciousness always held me back, so I just pushed aside.

During my second maternity leave with Emmy (my daughter), Covid was in full force and I was informed that I would not have a job to go back to after I completed my maternity leave….This was a hard pill for me to swallow.  I was really looking forward to going back to work.  I enjoyed the people I worked with and was really needing to get back into a routine and new normal especially after everything we’ve been through with COVID.  Then the thought of having to start a new job, at a new organization, meeting all new people and panic set in.  It is kind of funny that I decided to go into HR and interviewing is part of the job because I feel very uncomfortable in interviews and get SO nervous.  I second guess everything and my anxiety sets in. I also felt like such a failure and that I was letting my entire family down.

Back to my reason for deciding to publish my book… as I was still on maternity leave and home with the kids, I had ‘some’ time to think and start to plan. I decided to take all this as a sign.  The week before signing on with the self-publishing company, I received an offer from a traditional publisher. While in the end I decided that self-publishing was the route I wanted to take with my book, the offer gave me confidence (which I always lack), that my book was good, and just maybe other people would love it as much as I did!

I wrote something that I felt had a message that would resonate well with others, and it was something, especially over the last year and half, I was trying not to take for granted myself. That was time. Enjoying and being more in the moment with my kids.  While I still continually struggle with it, as my mind is CONSTANTLY racing, I know that children grow fast and while the last few years did not go as planned, it reminded me and hopefully others to truly cherish the small moments together with our kids and loved ones.  I decided to put my words and thoughts into a book and hopefully it becomes a reminder to squeeze your babies extra tight and take in the moments when we can, as nothing lasts forever.

As a mom, I most definitely know that not everything is always perfect, in fact, far from it. Motherhood and being a parent is BY FAR the hardest thing I’ve ever done.  But I know that children are not small forever, so when I look at my kids, I see such wonder and innocence and know they were given to me to love and guide and hold and get through life together.

I hope that everyone who gets a copy of my book – whether you’re a parent, grandparent, aunt, uncle, special friend, or anyone – I hope it can be a special keepsake and reminder of the things that matter the most in life, as I know we all need the reminder some time!